Friday, December 22, 2006


Burst my bubbles

Ok this is insane. In less than 24 hour I’ve been blown away, ecstatic, flirtatious, agitated, disappointed, left wondering, shocked and speechless.

Well not actually speechless, coz here I am babbling away like my usual self. But it took awhile to compose myself. I. Was. Shocked. But of course it would be the end of all mankind before he sees that from me.

Remember that guy I met during my first Umra trip few years ago? Well he has this tendency to disappear for months and then reappear without warning. (I need one, coz d last thing I need right now is a sudden trip way down memory lane dat might burn my sorry flirtatious ass FOR NOTHING, if I’m not careful).

Well, the guy called yesterday, and I’m happy to hear from him. After all, I considered him a wee bit special (an answer to my prayers after I curse my ex boyf @Masjidil Haram and wish for a nice man to help me forget him while I’m there) , since he shared the same hotel with me and I’m happy to find a nice guy to make friends with, on that devastating city (where I lost my PDA-phone thankyouverymuch). Ok he called and we chatted for awhile and in came the trip-dat-will-burn-me-arse thingie. Not dat I can help it. Its my weakness, I’m born with it. So I went to bed thinking dat maybe this time things’ll change. Hmm.. am i in for a huge surprise.

Things changed all right. He called again, we chatted again, n he shoved me this piece of information dat he is now a proud papa of a 3month-old babyboy. And yes he’s married. And I laughed.. and laughed.. and laughed.. and it really is too painful to write down. Really. I’m laughing at myself. I didn’t see it coming. Woooow.

Ok now since its officially over, (talk about some closure.. huh) its time to move on with life, cos one dat involves him is surreal. Not bad, just surreal. I don’t want that kind of life. Not anymore.


hell i didnt know dat a lil crush can crushed u this bad..

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Monday, December 11, 2006


a piece of everything

Here’s a thought. Maybe I don’t wanna be an architect. Maybe I just wanna prove to them that I can be just as good as the rest of them, even better. And I proved it. Mission accomplished. So why do I feel incomplete?


I’m writing this while watching Nip/tuck :season 2, the episode where Julie tells Christian that Matt is his son. And I went HOLYCRAP THE WOMAN IS MAD. It is suicidal, no less. I hate it when guilt conquers all. Note that I said guilt, not moral, not consciousness. I’m a Julie sometimes too. Not too crazy about it either, coz reality bites. It bites a huge chuck of your ass n left u feeling like an ass also.

Which reminds me of this movie I gotta see. (im talking bout Reality Bites, not the ass part) its “The Holiday”. I know Jude Law is a real life bastard (frm sadie frost to sienna miller to the babysitter n back again) n I should despise him for all womankind but he is drop dead gorgeous n achingly sexy n that’s enough reason for me to ditch the r-e-s-p-e-c-t bullshit n spend the last 5 bucks I hv, ogling at his beyootiful face while drooling all over my popcorn. Besides Jack Black is in n he’s fuhnee. I must see.

Oh goodie my boyf is online, imma show him sumtin interesting.. heheheh

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Saturday, December 09, 2006


exhale

i must admit i was kinda devastated when i cant post to this new bloggerfrickinbeta -thingie.. i hardly share my life with anyone else (except krishna of course but sometimes even with him its still not the same.. i need my girls) eversince me n my friends graduated frm college, n i need to get it outta my system n the only sensible thing to do is to blog. i can spit it out without worry, cos the conversation goes one way (two if u readers felt compelled to comment) and its cheaper than going to some shrink who'll charge me $50/hour or more. so, yes i'm glad i hv this blog.

btw yesterday i went to bandung with ieyan n bely, spent 1 night there n back d next day. bought 2 sweaters (1 fer me n 1 fer pigwig the sister), 1 shirt fer boyf, 1 pants -short- fer me, and a semipermanent paperwatch. i'm thinkin of giving it to Nana since she's sweet enough to buy me that Misery tote bag. of course i'll reimburse it cos d bag is EXPENSIVE n the paperwatch is not. hehe. but its cute though. wanna see? i'll post it later.

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made in bandung



the sweater, the shirt and the paperwatch. all for less than $20.

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Friday, December 08, 2006


wedding singer




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Thursday, December 07, 2006


fight fire with fire

mthrfckin internet connection..!!!!! Just when I thought it couldn’t possible get any shittier!!! fffffffuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkkkk@#*&$#*^%&!^#%^&@*%#@^!?!!




So. Last sunday is Emir & Elok Wedding @Patra Jasa. We had fun, can’t complain. Even after we (jaley, noumi and I) got introduced with the “I’m-a-cool-and-sophisticated-flight-attendant” (but is actually an air hostess with domestic face busy kissing the family’s asses), I still didn’t find any reason to complain. Why bother.

That, and d fact that she’s fugly. ha ha.

Ok ok maybe not that horrifying (I said MAYBE) but still, i was expecting more of a real competition here. She’s trying to look like she belongs there, sitting stubbornly on the family table with her sullen face, that poor pitiful thing, while me in my fluffy white dress busy chatting around WITH the family. Guard the table all you want, honey, I -still- got what u can’t afford. not that i need it anymore, i got my boyf n his sweet sweet family here n i love them, but its always nice to hv a smooth relationship with everybody n (their family) specially ppl frm my past.

Oh well I only wish that my dear friends were there to see her in person. I’m sure that would certainly be a day to remember. for her.

Speaking of them, last Saturday night we all got together at Nippon’s house for dinner n watched Nia-Wishnu Wed video. We all brought sumtin to eat, n I brought grapes for dessert. I love my angels, sure they can be so self-centered n obnoxious at times (ok MOST of the time) but they're harmless n lovable to the last bite. We had fun fun fun n i cant wait to c them again @Dhitong-Mosa Wed this weekend ^o^ wooohoooooo


Aaaand imma leave u with some pretty reasonable thoughts from Her Space Holiday. why didnt i think of this sooner? it all make sense.


~its not like imma slut or that I really like to fuck
I just want every boy I see to walk away with part of me
until there’s nothing left to hold until there’s nothing left to hate
I appreciate ur help but even u cant save me from myself~

~Suck on my fingertips until u kill all my prints
So your girlfriend has no clue of how much I’ve been touching you~
(yeah this one’s revised, haha bite me)


i miss my boyf. its been too damn long.

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